Easy way out

[Ape]

I posted this on The Clave a week or 2 ago. I changed it a bit (the ending, mostly, then added some stuff) so...here it is

Edit: Meh, i just changed the title of it (since i changed the poem so much) This was "It only gets worse" on The Clave


I'm feeling so alone and i fear i'm growing weak
all this time of searching but there was nothing there to seek
i've been chasing myself in circles searching for a light that never shines
there's nothing in this world for me and there's nothing that is mine

and to think at one time i thought there was hope
i thought i'd make it out, i'd only have to cope
things didn't get better though, my future plans were all but right
i'm slipping into insanity, where in the dark the demons bite

It would be so much easier to just die
i don't see the point in this, why do i even try?
maybe i'm going to hell, compared to my life it can't be too bad
you say that satan will torture me, he can't be worse than my own dad

Nobody cares anyways, so why should i wait?
death is taking far too long, why is it so late?
i'm speeding it up now, sitting in the dark i feel the blood drip from veins
and when i'm gone, will anyone even notice before the teacher calls out names?

No, i had no use here, i was only taking up space
no one really wanted me here, nobody wants to see this face
so i welcome death with open arms, i'm knocking on the reapers front door
take myself away from this hell i burn in, a puddle of blood on my bedroom floor

Will anyone cry at the funeral, will anyone even be there?
classmates will go to get out of school but will anyone really care
NO! Exactly my point, i'm so lonely and i don't see why i'm here
so fuck it, i'm sick of them laughing at me while i'm sitting in tears

I won't stand for it, i'm not going to take it anymore
laughing at myself as the blade sinks to the core
morbid thoughts racing though my thoughts and everythings black
half dead my minds racing, knowing that i can't take it back

I try to think of the good times, all i'm seeing is bad
covered in my own blood, and feeling so sad
i'm slowly dying, tears flowing, i'm glad its finally done
looks like they got the best of my, looks like they've won

[Aiden]

Oh my gosh this one scares me a little. Very descriptive. but very well written.

[Ape]

Heh, yea well...i've been in some pretty bad moods lately

[Aiden]

yeah I know what you mean. I wrote a new poem today in class because the teacher pissed me off. It doesn't have a title though, but I'm gonna post it in a second.