Life after love(complete)

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Sitting here in this room that had become my home for the past two years i remember the pain and the sorrow that is still as alive in me as the day my heart was broken. I am looking at a tree so beautifull so lonley i have watched it sleep in winter and rewake in spring. My doctor says i can get better but i know i never will every thing that became important to me has been taken away and i wiil never get over that.

My Doctor,Dr Harris insists that writting what happened down in a type of diary willl help the healing prosess and th prove him wrong i'm going to do it. I am going to tell you my story.It all happened when i started at Midale High.That is when i meet him.It was my first day and i was so lost the corridors seemed to go on forever and i couldn't seem to find any where i wanted to go.But when i found my way to psychology maybe five minuetes late i just took the first seat available,and just as if fate had insisted on it that seat was next to his.He smiled at me as i sat i asked
"Does any one sit here?"
"Not any more,I'm Rob Sanderson."
His reply was pleasing because i noticed for the first time Rob Sanderson was hot.I smiled maybe a little shyer then i wanted but replyed
"Morgan Wood."
After that we talked for ages about every thing,nothing seamed to be out of bounds with him and in no time at alll i found my self totally at ease in his company.It was magic.

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It really did not take long for me to fall head over heals in love with him. Every day we would meet to walk to school, at dinner and to walk home.The best thing about our frienship was we never run out of things to say and if there was a gap in the convosation it was a comfortble quite, which would normally end with me or him bursting in to fits of laughter.Most of our lessons were together and about a month after i had first arived it was public knowlodge, we were a item. I was so proud, I could not believe some one like Rob would want to be with me. Even my mom liked him and her slogan was "If you're not the heir to a throne,you're not good enough for my little girl"It was perfect for the first time in my life I realised I was happy.I had found my soul mate. I felt so greatful knowing some people wait there whole lifes and never find their special someone and there was me.
At 16 i had found the one I intended to spend the rest of my life with.

I could talk forever about the times we used to walk together in the woods, and just sit in the feilds of sweet smelling heather. We used to cudle up on the sofa and watch film after film in our mini mararhons. We used to just take of to the beach and stay there, it was like our own privet desert island and we loved being alone. We used to hire sail boats and go out on the sea. We got really good.

Looking back i can see clearly the begining of the end was our second assignment in pscology.We had to care. So many people decided to care for their gran or a pet. I see now they had the best idea. We decided to care for little boy. His name was Jacob and he was so sweet.His cheeky grin and angel eyes proved to be a deadly combination. He lived with his mom who adored her little boy. She let us care for him while she worked like a kind of free baby sitting servise. We got special permision to leave school early on the days we had to pick him up from play school. We would make his tea, play with him and have him ready for bed for when him mom came in. We reallt did love them two Jacob and his mom,Alison became good friends and we did care for them.We cared for them alot.

We soon noticed jacob never spoke of his father.When we asked Alison about him she went really Quite.She explained the Jacob was a result of her ex-boyfriend raping her and after that she fled. She told us that ever since that day she has been running from him knowing he would kill her and take Jacob. We could see the pain in her eyes just at the subject of the past and the consiquences of him cathcing up with her. We swore that day to never bring the subject up again. And we never did.

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Every thing was fine for a long while Jacob love coming to the beach with us and was mad about going on the boat. We never realised that that time was the calm before the storm.But when it hit it hit hard.


We never saw the red car across the road. The man inside was just some stranger. We did not realise he got out and started followoing us. It was unusual for the door to be unlocked, but it was not alarming. Jacob ran a head,he always did.Nothing seamed wrong. We walked in to the kitchin and switched the kettle on.We heard Jacob shout us and we ran.I feared he had slipped or fallen.


Alison was in the room.Hands and legs bound she had been badley beaten.she resembled a child.She seamed so small.The room had been torn apart.It was a sean of unbelievable violence.We went to Alison.gentley i untied her bounds as Rob called and Ambolence and the police.
The door slammed shut with us all in the room.We were encloed,trapped.It seamed an age before we turned to see the truley evil probably insane man.
He was not overly tall.His forehead stuck out at one side and his noise was fat and stubby.His eyes were deeply sunked back in to his head.I was afraid.His thin lips broke in to a grin.He was exited like hurting Alison gave him some sorts of sexual pleasure.

We knew what we had to do.The police were on their way.I moved towards Jacob.Alarm spread all over his face.We slowley edged towards the window.He picked the chair up easily and threw it at us.It went streight throught the window.We took our chance we jumped out after it.The fall did not hurt.We ran Rob had Jacob on his back.We were too scared to even look back.If we had we would have known it was too late.The evil man we in his car in persute of us. I took Jacob and ran with him to the beach.How could the evil man get to us if we were in the middle of the ocean. As i did that Rob ran in the other direction.

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I never realised that would be the last time I would see Rob alive. If I had i would have insisted he come with us but he knew what he was doing. He told me every thing would be ok and i believed him. The evil man followed Me.But we got to the boat and far enought out to sea for him to understand he could not get us. Me and Jacob stayed out in the boat for hours untill the coast gaurd came for us.

We went to hospitle together, me and Jacob. I refused to let him go. I dont know why but I thought if I just hold on to Jacob every thing would be ok. His mom trusted me and Rob to keep him safe and there was no way I was going to let any one take hime away.

They came to me the next day.Both my parents and his.I still ahd no heard what had happened to Rob. His father was the one who told me. As my mother clung to me and his mother cried.His father said.
"You were very brave out there
Morgan, all of us are very proud
of what you and Robert did to save
that little boy."
I can remember thinking i like the way his dad called him Robert. That was his rel name and it suited him in a diffrent way to how Rob suited him. He went on,
"I know how close you two were
and im very sorry to tell you
this but Kane Maxwell killed Rob."
I was in shock.My first thought was your lying Rob can not be dead i wount let him be.
"He's dead."
Screamed his mother. I Was numb. I could not breath.I felt nauseous.I could partle hear my mother talking to me and my father telling me how well i was taking all this. Once they had told me they all tactfull decided i needed to rest.

Maybe a week later they took me home.The next day would be the funarel.I didn't go. They said it was too soon. I got all dressed up and just stood up in front of my window. I stood there for the whole day.I cant remember what i was thinking,maybe i wasn't i don't no.
I vaguely remember my mom undressing me and putting me to bed. When i wokethe next morning the house was empty.I was alone.I walked in to the bathroom wanting to go back to sleep.I found the sleepling tablets.I kept thinking if i took two id go back to sleep,if i took more id sleep throught the day. I just kept taking them untill there was no more left to take. I felt my eye lids grow hevey and my limbs start to sag and bacome so stiff.

I rememder people around me.Shouting things.I think a felt my head being lifted and then my whole body moving.I was not afraid. The next thing I remember is being in hospitle my mom and dad crying.I could not help but wounder why.I'd only gone to sleep.

So thats how i got here.My story is through. Thats all ive had and all ive lost. They say im going to get better i hope they all understand now i won't.I can't.

Today Alison came to visit me.She came in to my room and sat on my bed with me.I tell her about the tree and she listones. Before she leaves she turnes to me and says
"I am so thankfull for what you
did for me and Jacob.Look at that tree
it is so old, it has lived through so
much.It has been bent and broken.
It has been scared throght to its core.
You can see those scares.They dont
go away.They stay with it. You are so much
like that tree.You have been bent
and you have been broken.The scares
you have run deep throgh you and
if you look close enough you can see
them. The tree choses to grow and
in that it choese to live.You have that
same desision to make.Morgen your
scares won't ever leave you.You'll
carry them for the rest of your life.
But you can still grow.
With that she left.I sat there forever just thinking about what she had said and she was right.I had to choose.

So here i am Dr Harris.I am Morgan Wood.I love Rob with all my heart and as long as I dont let him go he won't be totally gone.He'll be with me. so this is the last time i am going to write in this book that holds the past,Which needs to be left in the past.Locked away in a trunk,chained and bound and then thrown in to the sea.We loved the sea,and the sea will keep my story safe.

All i have left to say is.I choose to grow.I choose to live.
The end.